Healing my little girl

I’m sure you’ve heard the term “childhood trauma.” It might be  a term that resonates. The reality is childhood trauma is common and leaves lasting emotional scars on mental health and general well-being.

I feel this. Was I abused as a little girl? Not physically. Childhood trauma doesn’t need a necessary physical component. The mental trauma of childh00d  is much worse in my opinion and experience.

A child should be hugged and loved. I didn’t experience that. I have no memory of any love expressed from my parents. In fact, they often ignored me and left me to myself. I remember sitting at my desk in my bedroom doing high sch00l homework. They kept the house so cold that my fingers were often purple.

Also, it was always about my narcissistic m0ther. She  took a daily two-hour nap. As a result, I was often left to entertain myself by reading. By reading every day, I established a habit I’ve had to this day.

I think of this little girl wh0 really never felt like enough, who did’nt feel loved. I would tell her than none 0f this was her fault. I’d give her a huge hug and tell her I’m here for her. Also, I’d say that it’s ok to not want t0 be around people wh0 ign0re you, even your parents. Healing and being a good person is possible and up to you.

Little Bridget, you will be an independent person who makes mental health your focus. You are enough. I love you.

And now, as an adult, this Bridget never wanted t0 repeat this trauma in her life. That is why I raised my daugher totally different with hugs and words of love, and I’m focused on being the best wife I can be.

Author: Bridget Zappa Hahn

Women's Life & Transformation Coach View all posts by Bridget Zappa Hahn