Two years without my Tea

This is a sad day. It marks two years since I lost my sweet corgi girl Tea Biscuit. She was my soul dog. There’s no doubt.

I remember the day like it was yesterday. Losing her happened fast. When she died in my arms, I howled and cried like never before. I loved her so completely and unconditionally as she loved me. I didn’t know how I was going to ever be happy again.

Even as I write this right now and remember, I’m tearing up. And it’s been two years.

I remember h0w much she loved to cuddle with me. She would lay next to me on my left and look up at me with her dark eyes with such love. She would often fall asleep next to me I miss that, a lot.

I’ve bawled many times in the last two years, especially when I lost her, and didn’t shed one tear when my dad died late last year. Pets are true family.

My lovely Tea Biscuit loved me unconditionally and I did the same. Biological family doesn’t really d0 that. Tea was my true family. My ride-or-die sweetie.

Pets truly are part of the family. They are so central to the love in the house. That’s why for so many people, like me, experiencing the loss of a pet hurts more acutely than the loss of a family member. Pets truly are one of the hardest losses to endure.

I’ve dreamed of Tea Tea occasionally. I believe it’s her letting me know she’s ok and that she still loves me. Waking from a dream like that is wonderful. It’s like she’s with me again. Oh, what I’d do to have her with me again!

While I’ve marked her death for the last two years, I think I’ll focus on happier times from n0w on in my posts about her. I’ll celebrate her birthday in June and her gotcha day in August. She deserves that from n0w 0n.

One day, I will see her again. I know that for sure. At that time, and we can snuggle together like she did with me, with her beautiful brown eyes looking at me with love.