I had a dream last night. Details were sketchy, but I was out of commission for a time. With one daughter, I’ve always known so much would fall to her if anything happened to me. That was one clear part of my dream – her being at my side. She was supported by her partner. Also near me was my bestie. I know if anything ever happened to me, they would be right beside me, no questions asked. We all need one or two people we can rely on in our lives no matter what. It can be someone from your past or present. This dream reinforced that to me.
Editor’s note: On June 29, I was taken by ambulance to a hospital on the North Shore of Minnesota. I passed out while helping Rob stack firewood and had had a tiny seizure. Thank God I was with my love. He jumped into action and never left my side. He was so reassuring and loving – just what I needed when I was scared. It turned out I was dehydrated. After an EKG and IV fluid, I was discharged. Rob continued to care for me and make sure I stayed hydrated. Love is a feeling and an action and I’m blessed to have both.
Who is in your life that supports you through thick and thin, light and dark times, no questions asked? It doesn’t need to be anyone biologically related to you. Besides my daughter, my true family isn’t blood – they are the ones who I love and love me back and accept me no matter the situation.
As important as a strong support system is identifying the toxic people in your life and removing that energy from your sphere. I’m serious. Energy invades and spreads and no one needs ugly toxic energy in their lives – especially when you’re vulnerable and need love and support. Remove. Cleanse. Don’t feel guilty. Don’t look back.
For me, that’s actually my biological family, my parents and siblings. I can’t be judged one more time for being me and for the decisions I’ve made in my life. I’m 48. I raised my daughter on my own. I put her through Catholic schools, high school and college on my own. I did and can do hard things on my own. I didn’t need my biological toxicity then or now.
Find those bright, shiny people who love you for you, all your bumps, bruises, flaws and fuck ups. Those are the ones to keep close and not let go.
